Sunday, May 10, 2009

Happy Mother's Day

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt..
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom..

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the amazement or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

I'm back...again...maybe

my life has been crazier than I ever dreamed (it's been more of a nightmare, but things are headed in the right direction now) the past month and a half I've learned who my true friends are and who I can trust...I won't go into details but I've learned alot about myself this past month and a half; I'm a lot stronger than I ever give myself credit...

but with my nightmare comes changes and the biggest change is I'm going back to work, I've been a stay at home mom and nephew sitter forever and now I'm getting back into the real world...before children I sold insurance and I'm going back into that field, I interviewed and was offered a job with a brand new agent with ALFA (just waiting on him to get the office set up)'s going to be a HUGE change but I'm ready!